I’m Outta Control: My Worst Enemy…

 When there is no enemy within, the enemies outside cannot hurt you.

~African Proverb

Why am I my own worst enemy?

Seriously! I’ve come to the realization that I am THE hardest on myself. I’ve expected more of “ME” than anyone else in my life. For years I’ve blamed it on others. And to top it all off, I push myself to do things that are almost humanly impossible to accomplish and sound downright ridiculous when you explain it to someone who asks: “So what have you been up to…?”

 

I admit it!  I’ve spent years hiding my imperfections, creating personal expectations that only a “superwoman” could possibly achieve {Okay I admit it-I suffered from this delusion of grandeur in the 80′s !} …..and I’ve used my girlfriends’ “perfected” qualities as the measuring stick for my own self worth. (i.e. “C—-’s” great cooking skills and fabulous ability to entertain , ‘L——–’s” perfectly clean and organized house, “J——–’s” sense of humor and ability to make friends, and “K—-’s” perfectly toned body and beautiful hair, etc…etc..etc..)

 

But then something happened.  

 I turned  50!

  And  realized that -I am outta control…AND I’M TIRED! 

 

 Tired of being perfect, tired of being a superwoman and tired of attempting to be a compilation of all the perfect women I’ve ever known. 

 And so this brings me to where I am at today-which is the first step towards making changes-self awareness.

So I am admitting to the world that I have been my own worst enemy. And I am going to STOP IT.

 

So to all of you that have known the old me I want you to know this:

If you don’t like the new me AND you feel the need to tell me so-I will respond to you with the following words of wisdom- that I learned in the first grade:

 

“Stick and stones may break my bones…

But words will NEVER hurt me!”

Because you see I now understand…”When there is no enemy within, the enemies outside cannot hurt you!”

Happy Letting Go!

 

Debs

 

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